The Fear: I cannot recreate it.
I twittered recently for help in moving. God sent me Angels! I was terrified of the physical pain that I was sure to come from the drug users that were moving in next door, and I knew they would break in and rob me and hurt me. They were already bullying me out of my yard and treating me as if I were scum. I didn't like it. I felt fear all the time. Irrational or foresight I don't know. I have been known to "see" things that were coming or were happening as I was seeing them in my mind. I just knew I needed to get out of there.
I also had a fear of freezing to death as I almost died last winter due to lack of insulation in the house and my lack of night time mobility. That was a real fear. And I can sit here now, look in that house and see myself terrified as if I were a different person that I am watching on TV.
I know in my heart a lot of people Prayed for me as I Prayed for help and I Thank you all. Please don't stop. I want to share with every one that though that was a terrible time, I cannot recreate the fear by thinking about it even when I am trying to fall asleep. And for that, I will always remain grateful to whomever Prayed for me and to the Lord for helping me through such a scary time. Now when I fall asleep, my thoughts are not there. I try to think and use the skills I learned at that horrible house to help me sleep but I get about a second into it and I am already comfortable and just fall asleep. I wake warm and rested. I really love the new place, I do have a carpet that has been here for many years that I am having allergic reactions to and getting major headaches from though the landlord said he will replace it this week. So that is my biggest thing now. If you want to Pray he really changes it, that would be great. Again. thanks for all the support. A special shout out to Jason Younger for going out of his way and bringing me dinner one night when I was really hungry and couldn't get a nurse to help tend to me. Now for the first time I have 2 and they are doing pretty good. Could be better but I am not complaining much. Just enjoying life finally. Hope every one has a great Wednesday. xoxo
Labels: 422, Prayer, Twitter
Is there a way to make a title for a post?
Title: Why I follow some people on twitter. Cause I wanted to and @jasonyounger asked.
Wow, so much to say. first @jasonyounger asked every one who you enjoy following and why? 140 characters isn't enough to answer so I am making a blog post about the peeps I follow on Twitter, I won't repeat the ones I already have done as they were posted to my twitter and can be found easy enough (I think? If you want posted again, just ask, I will gladly re write it). probably more then he meant but I started this project recently on my own so I might as well get it finished as I really wanted every one to know why I follow them just because. I would love to know why people follow me, though I can only imagine its like a train wreck, you just can't stop watching.
alittlepregnant-This twitter belongs to a wonderful gal that had a blog I found many years ago when I had a hysterectomy and decided that it was safe to want to be a Mom because I couldn't do so and the best way was to read others stories on infertility, actually just found her twitter today so hit follow to see what's up.
Ade1965, TheEllenShow, cracked, postsecret, SydesJokes, FunnyJoker-These I am following for the funny stuff they post.
MamaNotes-I hit follow as I noticed you following me. Hi!
Richard_RN -I hit follow as I noticed you following me. Hi!
Tronoleum, Grimmit- I love these kids.
Area51josh-Animal lover. Funny.
cj3rd- Love to read thoughtful tweets.
Cyrus family and a few friends, I follow because after purchasing Mileys album because Taylor Swift had a song on it, I realized this kid can sing. I follow the rest of her crew because it is sweet to see a family interact that adores each other.
blurb & dooce- What a team. So funny, can't imagine not following them. Their blogs are great also.
redneckmommy-Love her blog, and her tweets are even funnier.
MckMama-I read to make sure I don't miss out on oppurtunities to Pray for her darling son Stellan.
Chookooloonks-Used to read her blog way back. Recently found her on Twitter and decided to see whats up.
misszoot-I follow you because I love reading your blog and your tweets are funny.
Tertia-Blog reader for years. Love this gal.
newbornidentity, friendsofmaddie, mamaspohr - I follow for updates on their blogs. To hear how their Pregnancy is going and to get updates that I can RT for their beautiful daughters blog where Mom & Dad are trying to take something horrible and turn it into something great.
GreenEyedMonst, tweetalacart-First person that ever commented me so I hit follow.
Followtheblonde, reba, WilliamShatner, therealpickler, taylorswift13- These are some of the most amazing people I know that I have yet to meet.
cesarmillan- We have A lot in common on our training ways and if I weren't as sick as I am I think I could help others the way he does.
AspieWorld ,service_dogs, Dogsfordisabled,SSDOGS, ServiceDog I follow these but don't get the time to catch up like I would. I have a Service Dog and one in training and have Aspergers so that sums it up.
I left a few out because I haven't really had a chance to read to see whats going on and if I will stay following. One I left off is just mean and hrm. I should just hit "unfollow" but don't know how I guess. (not literally)
And this was harder then it should have been, sitting up at the computer to type is hard on me though I said I would do this so I did. I could have made it even longer and sappier but just know, If your on this list & I made an attempt to tell you why I follow you, Know I adore you.
Labels: Twitter
