Wednesday, May 19, 2010

This Post is so very hard for me.

"Chrissie" (allarepreciousinhissight.blogspot.com) Has gone to be with Jesus. I Prayed yesterday. I had my Mom put her on the Church Prayer chain. I was shocked to see she was gone just now when I went to her page.

Chrissie, You are a Serbian American sensation and I am so glad your no longer suffering. You are a testament to Gods grace. I can't wait to see you dance your heart out in Heaven. God Bless you and rest your weary soul. My Heart goes out
to the hospital crew, Her Parents, and her siblings. xoxo, Kandi

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Monday, December 07, 2009

Musings...

 I am really surprised to find myself wanting to do a blog entry. I wanted to use a fancy font though the options are not very great. So, no fun looking font for this entry. Tis Ok.

One of the things heavy on my mind is another blog I read. I won't put who, though, I want to tell them but I know people think I am a freak anyways so I don't want to put undo weirdness there. Here is my space so I will put it here so I can come back to it and remember, I told myself so. ha!


I have a great ability to "know" (or guess if you wish) what a baby will be before its born. Sometimes before the person even knows they are pregnant. One time, when a pregnancy was ended and I told the person I "dreamt" of a beautiful Blond hair, curly hair little boy about two, and the person broke down in tears and confessed, Oh Lord I could have done without knowing this, but the pregnancy had been ended that day and no one was being told but I triggered something and the horrible news was shared with me. I can still see this little angel boy as clear as over 20 yrs ago.

Another time, more recently, about 5 yrs agoish, my sister told me my niece was pregnant and I immediately saw "twins". I told my sister and she said, she is only 8 wks pregnant and no sonogram yet. Well, I have two great nieces now, faternal twins. lol. It just goes on and on. I "felt" a dear friend, Like a daughter/daughter in law to me would never be able to "have" babies. I felt it so strongly. She has two kiddo's now. Though her uterus wouldn't let her "give birth" the way most wish to. I don't know if that counted or not. I threw that one in the wrong pile anyways.

And that brings me to. Reading, The baby blogs I am brought to, I believe with all my heart its meant to be, at a higher level, Our creators level, and I take this seriously. I Pray for the families I am lead to, each time I click in and read a new post. And so far, Not one family has suffered the loss of the embie they are carrying and the babies go home happy and healthy. I have been a baby Prayer warrior for over 5 yrs. The latest family I have been led to, I feel is having a girl and she is sticky/staying and going to go home and join her big sister in about 8 mos. Though feeling so "safe" doesn't stop me from Praying each time I visit.


Well, I have more to say, but on other subjects so I will end this blog post and move on to another or not, depending if I can type more. xoxo, Kandi Ann

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Wednesday, October 07, 2009

The Fear: I cannot recreate it.

I twittered recently for help in moving. God sent me Angels! I was terrified of the physical pain that I was sure to come from the drug users that were moving in next door, and I knew they would break in and rob me and hurt me. They were already bullying me out of my yard and treating me as if I were scum. I didn't like it. I felt fear all the time. Irrational or foresight I don't know. I have been known to "see" things that were coming or were happening as I was seeing them in my mind. I just knew I needed to get out of there.

I also had a fear of freezing to death as I almost died last winter due to lack of insulation in the house and my lack of night time mobility. That was a real fear. And I can sit here now, look in that house and see myself terrified as if I were a different person that I am watching on TV.

I know in my heart a lot of people Prayed for me as I Prayed for help and I Thank you all. Please don't stop. I want to share with every one that though that was a terrible time, I cannot recreate the fear by thinking about it even when I am trying to fall asleep. And for that, I will always remain grateful to whomever Prayed for me and to the Lord for helping me through such a scary time. Now when I fall asleep, my thoughts are not there. I try to think and use the skills I learned at that horrible house to help me sleep but I get about a second into it and I am already comfortable and just fall asleep. I wake warm and rested. I really love the new place, I do have a carpet that has been here for many years that I am having allergic reactions to and getting major headaches from though the landlord said he will replace it this week. So that is my biggest thing now. If you want to Pray he really changes it, that would be great. Again. thanks for all the support. A special shout out to Jason Younger for going out of his way and bringing me dinner one night when I was really hungry and couldn't get a nurse to help tend to me. Now for the first time I have 2 and they are doing pretty good. Could be better but I am not complaining much. Just enjoying life finally. Hope every one has a great Wednesday. xoxo

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